Hello, my people. It is I! Back from the dead. Sort of. Still feeling dead, but back, nonetheless.
Here's what I'm not going to do. I'm not going to apologize for having not blogged in the past forever. Though more than a few people have asked me where I've gone *straightens collar, brushes it off*. There has been absolutely nothing to blog about and then just FUCKING EVERYTHING. I have been through a range of stupid emotions that just would not make good writing... One of those emotions being the one where I think, "I should really write this stuff down... that way when I am so thankful for how far we've come, I can look back and say..." Oh, I don't know. What the hell.
I'll update you on some things so that we can just get back to our regular blogging station. I do miss it. I don't want to waste time rehashing what's been going down for say, the last six months. So...
The Hubs is unemployed.
There. I said it. You reading that sentence did not take very much effort. That sentence takes every effort I have in my body. I live that sentence. I live it going to bed at night. I live it when I wake up. In the morning I have approximately 5 seconds to myself where the birdies begin dressing me and my hair is luxurious... rosacea doesn't exist and I am rich. Then reality sinks in and I literally, in my brain, say, "Shit." as I stumble out of bed.
It has been quite the struggle. This is the stuff that proves what you're made of, that's for sure. But it's definitely not all bad. It is hard to believe that it won't always be like this... I know it won't. But I will never take, say, a gallon of milk or a closet stocked with toilet paper for granted again. Can that be a bad thing?
Figuring out general survival with 5 kids without a regular income is not easy, but it is interesting the things that have gone on around us. The Hubs and I mentioned at the beginning of our little non-employment journey that people around us are going through things all the time. ...The old saying that if you stood in a circle with the people you know and all threw your troubles in the middle, chances are, you'd grab your own right back again. I did not believe this at first. At all. Period. But during these last few months one of our friends lost his home, another their six-week old baby. Illnesses have come and gone. Divorces. A dear old friend of mine lost his mother. Somehow you keep going. You endure.
So there it is. There have been other things that just don't stand out like the unemployment does... Z nearly had his finger smashed off his body. I may tell ya that one, it's a goody. Max has gone to school... fortunately/unfortunately, his teachers love him... as he does NOT misbehave at school. At all. I got my luscious locks cut off... damn near needed to make 3 pony tails out of it just to chop it off, but we got by with 2. I finally made my homeschool classroom. At one point I thought I was moving to St. Louis so I sold all my bedroom furniture. It's now just a permanent camping/slumber party up-in-thar. My grandma died... guess that's not such a happy point. Sigh. My siblings have all decided to get married all at once... though not to each other... that was worded funny.
... I'll end on that note.
You will hear from me soon. I need ya. You are my sounding board.